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another beer disappeared from the fridge again,
i think there's someone sneaking around the house
i bet that they're drunk
i bet they're fucked up
so while i stumble my way to a bathroom stall,
i feel my legs give in
and i eat shit again
so would you reconsider holding onto the letter i put on your shelf
when you hear this song, will you show your friends, or will you keep it to yourself
and would you cradle me against your chest and assure me that there is no hell after the world ends...
after the sun explodes...
and time runs out?
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Firestarters Club
03:33
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you were a rainy day at your cousins house
stuck finding solace in the heat inside your mouth
you tried to formulate a way to save the day
when the knives inside your mattress came out to cut your face
i'm still sorry about that
i keep the door to the outside unlocked on the off chance that you'll sneak into my room at night
you keep a gun on your nightstand and your hand is trained to shoot a motherfucker dead between the eyes
i'd sell my soul for you to know
why your mom can't take a fucking joke
and where your dad sneaks out to go
when he get so fucked up that it shows
because now you're never safe at home
and if you ever lose control
you'll stuff the barrel down your throat
inside the minivan you stole
before revealing this was all some joke
it's far from what i thought you'd be when you grew up
what the hell did i do wrong? i should've known it all along
when will my third degree burns look as bad as your's?
when will i realize i'm going to look a lot like you someday soon?
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Demo Lovato
06:07
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i can't remember if i slept last night
because my delusions always blur the line
so when i'm drifting out of consciousness
i feel my blood, as thick mud, begin to clog my vacant veins
and then it all makes sense
and i start to convinced myself you moved away
just so you could get away from me
i know it's probably all hysterics
but i can't help it
i keeps me up...
but when i'm walking by your house at night,
i still make sure not to close my eyes
in case you somehow reappear, shitfaced, sitting on your front porch
and i try hard to get myself up out of bed, but it's gotten so much harder
without your arms to pull me upright in the morning
but when i see you in my dreams, you bite
you tear out the pipebomb trapped inside of my chest, then you put it back
this time tethered to the right side
i'm doing my best to let you do everything that you claim that you need to
but i just keep breaking, and my face is turning blue
i have this fear of dying premature
i'm scared i'll meet my casket far too long before i should
that's why i'm petrified in public
i know that anyone could pull out a gun and shoot me point blank through my face
i know these nightmares don't make sense
but i have to confess that though i've learned to think
i still can't shake the surreality, and yes
i know you probably won't hear me out
i don't expect you to if it puts you down
it's when i'm walking by your house at night,
i still make sure not to close my eyes
in case you somehow reappear, shitfaced, sitting on your front porch
and i try hard to get myself up out of bed, but it's gotten so much harder
without your arms to pull me upright in the morning
but when i see you in my dreams, you bite
you tear out the pipebomb trapped inside of my chest, then you put it back
this time tethered to the right side
i'm doing my best to let you do everything that you claim that you need to
but i just keep breaking, and my face is turning blue
you could catch me on the back deck, blowing my life away
as we watch the smoke ascend along with all of our responsibilities...
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Dreamcatcher
03:48
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waiting for you to come back
even though i knew you never would
all my friends are trying to make me smile
so i tried to hide it as best i could
that was a stupid choice
that was a stupid choice
that was a stupid choice
now i'm waiting on a cloudy day to ascend and make friends with all the angels up in heaven
you made me eat my words again
it's still pretty hard to swallow them while i'm choking on my pride
and the knife that you used to cut me out of your life
is the same one that you used to plunge into my spine
that was a stupid choice
that was a stupid choice
that was a stupid choice
but if you try to force yourself to change, you may break at the seems and lose your heart aboard the subway..
that was a stupid choice
that was a stupid choice
that was a stupid choice
now i'm floating into outer space, out of place
but it's okay because i know we'll end up shitfaced at your house
in your basement with your dogs
while you chase shots with swigs of rum
pound a 40, then throw up
try not to pass out on your rug
but if you do, i'll let you sleep
we'll forget how much we drank
until we wake up on the street
convinced it all was just a dream
on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on............
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No Life.
04:00
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i can't wait to tell you just how cynical i've gotten ever since i chose to be the only one that stayed home
i thought the silence would be soothing when i woke up in the morning, but it seems you robbed my bed of all its comfort
and the rain that used to keep me in is now my only friend, it sings me lullabies whenever i close my eyes
and though i'm short of breath and scared to death of depth, i understand that i've hit rock bottom, but i swear to god i'm trying
how do i sleep at night with your body pressed into my side?
how will i float back to the surface when you're the only thing that could save me from the riptide?
i lost my shit when i walked out on my front porch, because the temperature keeps changing, is it the summer or is it fall?
the leaves are falling while it's snowing, and yet i still wear sun tan lotion, i'm worn right through from this consistent cycle of inconsistency
sometimes i press my ear against my wall, and i swear i hear you laugh, i don't know how that ever came to be
but if you're trying to communicate, i promise i'm doing great, so please don't worry about all the nightmares i've been having
there's no chance i'll sleep tonight without your warmth pressed into my sheets
and how will i live without your passion keeping me balanced in my head and on my feet?
and why do i sleep at night and wake up wondering why i can still see the speckles in your eyes?
i lay in my bed, perpetually surrendering to the overbearing sense of having no fucking life...
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